Newness & recovering from old habits

Hello all & Happy New Year! This is my first post of 2012 and i can say i have seen small changes taking place.

I see a colder winter, and more rain coming in this month.  It is definitely a time to catch up on old things, making a soup i haven't had time to, enrolling for Spanish lessons.  I would love to save money to see a play again, i have been catching up with old movies watching them on netflix.

It is time to reassess my past year of 2011.  It was filled with a lot of mourning & letting go of emotional attachments.  However i have seen the fruit of letting go, it is helping me to connect more with God, and the strength of the woman inside me dying to get out & live, but to live humbly, gently, graciously, and with sensitive, quiet emotion.

Detachment has been hard as i have felt a lot of anger & pain.  However think of Christ on the cross.  My emotions are so small compared to what he must have felt.  I am also starting a new meditation book by Sarah Ban Breathnach, called Simple Abundance & it is very helpful.  I am also re-starting a workbook of creativity, called The Artist's Way, it has been amazing.

So as we journey into this new year, we all have expectations, resolutions & aspirations.  I was reading in Sarah's book about aspiring rather than having to feel we need so many resolutions.  That is a lot of pressure, and already i feel pressure from my family, about getting in shape again.

It's okay to go through our feelings of pain.  It is okay to want to eat well, spend a little more, or to have our tendencies & temptations.  However in the world we are living in now, health is backsliding & money is deteriorating in these uncertain times.

May we turn back to God, even if it is a very slow journey, and rely on Him first.  Sure it is easy to spend money, eat too much when detaching, but as we rely on God more & His will for our lives, He will help to heal us.

Have a great January everyone!  All the best in 2012. :)