Well i have not blogged for a while. Here i am coming back again. I am debating about whether to put on a movie & coffee, or finish the chai in the pot & meditate, do yoga or say my rosary. Do you ever feel like you have too many choices? Too many emotions with an automatic "how dare you" response when someone just offers constructive critiicsm? As people we just have to accept other's personality types for what they are. Some people are more critical, i tend to be more emotional so a tad of criticism for my own good, can really light my fuse.
I also feel sidetracked by others needs while trying to find myself. I love knowing new business opportunities, etc that other people are pursuing, but i find trying to buy other people's new products & goodies overwhelming, when i'm trying to decide where my gifts are & how i can use them, while paying the essential monthly bills, putting food on the table, and not having extra cash!
I love hearing about new business ideas, i sell Mary Kay once in a while. I have a new, positive mindset to pursue my passion of writing, making aromatherapy products & blogging, along with belly & flamenco dancing & singing. I adore the Mary Kay company to help other woman while pursuing our own dreams. How exciting & motivating!
In my Mary Kay business I have had a big dream to go all the way to the top & to become a Director. Being an entrepreneur is a personal journey & I intend to pursue my creative career as well & put my Mary Kay into action helping my sisters, raising money for cancer & woman's shelters, and taking each day & moment one gentle step at a time. No more racing.
A"pie-in-the-sky" mentality of strong motivation and hard work is hard for me as a natural introvert. Although i have had some struggles with connection & moving forward in my personal business ventures, PLEASE get to know yourself first, and where your talents & skills REALLY lie.
I guess like i said i have been sidetracked. Sidetracked from my goals for instance, with buying everyone's "stuff", and not getting in touch with "who i am" & pursuing that path honestly.
I went to a study group yesterday & it says we can only juggle so many balls. Like three instead of five. Pick three activities you're interested in, and stop trying to do it all. The superwoman mentality is exciting, but not very realistic in terms of juggling. Hello burnout, & no money! :)
I know i like to sing, dance & write, but my talent lies mostly with writing. I have wracked my brain with The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren, and come up with my talents as writing, singing, kids, prayer & dance. My talents are simple & childlike, the dreams that are hard to make a living at, but nevertheless, just who i know myself to be.
I made healthy cupcakes 3 weeks ago! I loved to bake as a child, but i know i will not be a baker & run a cupcake shop. I like candy, sugar free i have tried, but i do not envision myself as a low-sugar choclatieress as in the movie "Chocolat." (Her chocolates were definitely not low sugar!) :)
I know to thine own self be true. Writing for me is it right now. I believe i might have a bit of stage fright, and not enough skill, so to go out & sing would not be realistic for me. I wanted to be an actress as a child or a model, but i always knew or came to know as a child that a high profile world was not for me.
Pursue little things we are good at. Often when we have a dream, it takes a while. Some people are just naturally more out-going, able to act, entertain, or pursue an independent wealthy business career.
I try to be more humble, simple & childlike. Pursuing a writing career is hard for me to do, eating too much humble pie.
Don't let those little rocks or silly petty arguments distract us with family or friends. Let's pursue the path to peace, and bury our egos. Stay true to your self, and face the bigger goals with a higher purpose first.
My goal to write more, and one day finish my book! :)